Im so Cold hearted, I drink alot now because its the only time im happy.?

You are very young and wanting answers about life. Drinking to forget my friend is not the answer. When you awake in the morning the problems still exist. All drinking gives is Dutch Courage, the ability to be happy temporarily. Give yourself a chance. Try a little prayer, it won't hurt, even if you don't believe in Jesus. We all have mountains to climb throughout life. If Jesus was beaten, pieces of flesh thrown from His body, thorns pushed into His scalp, and nailed to a cross, what problems have we. Everyone thinks their problems are the greatest, I can't walk but I thank the Lord for His mercies that I can see, hear, feel and speak.